Tuesday, December 8, 2009

all's well will end well=]

I wanna add something to my previous post which might seems optimistic but it will be true as long as we KEEP faith in ourselves=]

no matter wat L.O.V.E situation we are in, we will certainly had our worries..
BUT ..as long as we found our TRUE LOVE, n think " yeah he(or she) is definitely d ONE"..then, who cares,in FACT who GIVES A DAMN, on whether he is still single throughout his life, or he had been dumped, or he dumped his gf...

>>>because what matters t most is ..
t "wall" between u n him,
is broken by..
TRUE LOVE
=]

this is one of t lessons in life i think we esp youngsters should ponder upon,

well..
i am just sharing wat's in my mind..
as
SHARING IS CARING.XD

hence..
have faith
keep FAITH
n
most important of all,
take ur time, to find ur one n only true love
as..

>.^~d night is still young~
CHEERS FOR LOVE!=D

Monday, December 7, 2009

tiring LOVE

LETS say, at t age of 21-25, u were single..
t guy(or gal*) same age as u, n u think he fulfills ur "dream guy criteria"(or dream girl* for guys), u might wanna start a relationship with him, but there is only one thing bothering u: he HAD NEVER BEEN INVOLVED IN A RELATIONSHIP BEFORE, so u will think, if he is such a good guy, why still single n never had a gf b4 till now??at this age summore?? is it possible tat there is something ABNORMAL bout him? u will start to worry then~ THIS IS LOVE STRESS#1

LOVE STRESS#2 lets say again, at t same age , n u were single..
u met a guy(*) n u are about to date him, but there is one thing that worries you: he HAD BEEN DUMPED BY HIS GF(s)in most of his relationships..u will start to think..is it because he is not a good guy, or such a pain in t ass, or is it because he is a two-timer, tats y his gf left him? u might think he is unwanted cause he had been dumped before n u might just be "recycling" him..(no offence ya for those who feels offended)this is just an example..u will start to worry then~

OR lets say again, UNDER D SAME CONDITION, u met a guy, n this guy just dumped his gf..but his gf was reluctant to break ..
u both were goin out together after some time, u might feel valued because he is t one who don wan his old relationship, but his gf don wanna let go but still he is determined to break up, and after some time, he met you n liked you..(meaning he sort of choose u over his ex now) , but then u will start to worry (AGAIN) ..WORRY WHETHER he is a casanova, play boy, will he do t same thing to you..n worst of all, his gf might have come out with all possible scary unpredictable tactics just to get him back..<

> so in t end ,,u will start to worry ~ THIS IS LOVE STRESS#3

in conclusion, no matter wat situation it is, u will always have to WORRY bout LOVE..
love is TIRING
but tats t sacrifice we have to do if we want to attain happiness from love, rite?..

~peace in love, peace in life!~

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

its all kudou shinichi's fault

PART 1
t reason
i am
going to
have
~panda eyes again
~liver damage
~faster aging
~more wrinkles at t side of my eyes
~deafening ears

is

because

-----> i am downloading detective conan t disclosed case=.=

PART 2
i have deleted everything n plan to forget everything bout xxxx
i think too much
too much expectation
hopes for something to happen
it wont~
dream on will u~
i hope everthing will end up well
i hope i have a temporary amnesia~XD
all's well will end well..yeah
i am used to it, all those obstacles i had been able to overcome!>.

PART 3
u know wat annoys me now, the baby cries nonstop, dunno how many zillion times i went to "dodoi" him>.<
nvm, he is my precious(nephew..!!) after all~ shud be patient..hmmm

good !! download is completed..now i can zzzz..=.=

good night
peace out

p/s: i was wondering why most of my guy frenZZ so gilakan girls generation..=.="..

Monday, November 23, 2009

fishes in t sea~~~

PPL say even if u got hurt n lost ur love, don worry, there is still " a lot of fishes in the sea"..

this phrase is t reason we move on after losing our other half, with t hope of finding another "fish"..so wat if we lose t special him or her, there is still a lot of choices out there~~

OR

if we happen to love that special someone SECRETLY for years n years n yearsssss, only to be disappointed n left with a false hope n a broken heart, don worry, there is still "a lot fishes in the sea", just get over that special him or her, as there is still plenty of choices out there~~{this time i think of a song: Somewhere Out There by Linda Ronstadt & James Ingram}

HOWEVER, it takes a matter of time for me to realise t pain truth behind this so called optimistic phrase..

our feelings are hurt by our old love or crush, hence with that phrase in our mind, we are set to find another love >>oh!this one is more handsome/prettier n rich,guess i have made at right choice this time..wee< there is actually still a lot i can choose de!bla bla bla<<.....only to end up being hurt again agAIN n AGAIN by our other so-called love..

*sigh*
thats L.I.F.E~~n we human are meant to be t slave of L.O.V.E..~~~yet we are willing to...

Sunday, November 22, 2009

rebirth~

finally i am able to gain access to my lonely blog here, a lot bitter things not forgetting some sweet crazy moments had happened throughout t period from t last blog i posted here till now,..

i have learnt that we should appreciate friends that care for us n don give a damn on those that doesnt value our friendship,..hell yeah!

well this exam period is (well in my opinion) t most torturing period in my entire exam life...T.T...so many to study, many difficult chim chim de names and terms to remember(hmmm so far i manage to remember helicobacter pylori, iodamoeba butschlii, mycobacterium tuberculosis.<<.cheh show off kononnya wahahah!!>>)...n u know,..i like to go home mainly because i wanna meet my two nephews(big C n small c)..i don like to be stuck in setapak, t current place i am living in kl during my (hell)semester period,,sad to say ..i hate setapak!!!!!!!!!!!

but i have no choice but to try my best to stay positive n live life t fullest..sniff sniff**...but dunno why this time due to certain circumstances, i met some problem in finding transport back n forth KL..i have never felt tat tense n stress b4.T.T..but thank god in t end i manage to find..n from this, i learnt of who are t good ones who will be there for thou when u need them n also.. sad to say,, those helpless selfish ones(well maybe they have their own difficullties)..so i hereby wanna thank those who have help n support me throughout my self-assumed difficult moments..really appreciate ur effort, n u know who u r(>.^)..xoxo

overall i can just say that all the obstacles, disappointment, pain n misery(yet not all t time la) that i experienced throughout this period had made me a STRONGER person n nothing will stop me from achieving my dream(s)..hell yeah!!>.,< aza aza fighting!!

i shalt end this post by two wordss
~Good Night~

wahahaha..zzzzzz..(but i am not in t sleeping mood yet)

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Friends..I.Still.Remember

yesterday i met my ex classmates again..this time with mangay, faheem n sebastian..

me n mangay went out from my house at 9.30am n waited in front of acmar for like 30 minutes~
then i messaged Faheem "r u there" then he replied "yea"..little do i know that his "yea" meant he just woke up..@#$%^..haha

so mangay suggested that we wait for them at WismaMasalam(shah Alam)which is nearto faheem's house i supposed..we waited for another 30 minutes again..no..more than that!!@#$%^^%$#$#@..haha..well this is i supposed because he had to get up from his bed, brush teeth, wash face, shower, (maybe smoke in shower?wahaha) pangsai, dry his body, get out from shower, dry his hair using hair dryer,comb his hair, put lotion, put moisturiser, put toner,..bla bla..then he went to klang to fetch sebastian near centro then drive back to shah alam to meet us!...that makes us think why in t first place he said ok when mangay asked him whther is it better for him if we wait at shah alam cause we assume its nearer to his house so he wouldnt have to rush..well..watever~~we could have just waited in front acmar..

so..durin this one hour of waiting for them,the GUYs..me n mangay were friggin hungry..so we went to Baker's cottage to heal a lil bit of our hunger first..@#$$#@..
we realised that we are specially more aware of red cars..thats because we are hoping that finally a red-coloured My Vi will appeared at long last! yea we're anticipatin Faheem's car to appear faster cause we r starving..T.T..and i hate waiting( i know i let some ppl wait before also..sorry yea..hehe)..

finally..after t forth or fifth call , "we're at con..conc..concorde d!!"said sebby..n after 5 minutes or so ..t red (sort of red la) car finally appeared..haha..

Faheem suggested to eat Char siew..so we followed his car..his driving skill is cute~ hahahah..so we reached, ate , talked n laughed..even smoked......(fahem only)..t day was windy haha..so after that we planned to watch Ice Age 3 in sunway pyramid..we go in separate cars as mangay n sebastian had some chores to be done..

again me n mangay reached there frst..lucky i booked as its ren san ren hai there..haha..but i had booked for 3D accidentaly ..so tat costs us RM 17 each..(don go for 3D movies in cinema as t stup spec makes u wish u weren't wearing it n it makes not tat much difference after all)

so ..we watched Ice Age 3 3D..its was fun to watch..those baby characters are cute..esp t BAby Dinosss.mua mua mua..hahah..and this is t first time i see such an overreacted audience..those ppl behind us..it was dark ..so we dint see their faces..they laughed aloud even tho t scene wasn't tat funny..n when peaches(watch Ice Age n u will know who) is born. we heard a loud "Awwwwww.."..tats when faheem was sort of rofl..haha..yea we laughed as well..hahaha^^..
throghout t movie, i heard mangay, faheem n sebby's laughter occasionally..

this makes me think,
A Boy who laughed WITH a girl at cute-funny scenes ARE CUTE
but
A Boy who laughed AT a girl cause t girl think t scene is cute n funny n t-boy-thinks-tat-this-is-stupid-n-tat-if-he-laughs-along-tat-makes-him-sissy-and-unmanly*-..well THAT DOES NOT MAKE HIM MAN AT ALL AFTER ALL!

HAHA
SO. t end of t movie makes t end of our outing as well..

though most of t time we are waiting for them n always calling lookin for them, haha..
but i enjoyed , had fun n will MISS THEM..;D..
CAUSE we are still *once an acmarian forever an acmarian*
that makes us related as Acmarian family members(said by Faheem once due to certain Circumstances)
haha

hope there is more outing with them n more ex-acmarians will attend by then..:)

till then ..let our journey continue n we shalt meet in t next stop again...

~peace out~~24/7 HEAVEN

by t way, u guys should go listen to Friends by Big Bang..Friggin Nice!!!XDDD..i am listening to it now..makes my mood good..
~music makes me happy, music makes me alive!!XDD~

well at least music makes me calm as i woke up at six for no reason unable to sleep back cause i am nervous as i will be back to t challenging world t next day..~

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

time is ticking~

Q: dear heart, wat r u feeling now?

A:
~ two more days..before going back to t bookworm world..study study study study stress stress stress bus bus bus busy busy busy panda eye panda eye panda eye

~ find it most difficult to let go for six months~ my nephew: Calvin Chee Khai Wen(xiao yuan bai bao) & Cayson Chee Khai Sern( fat fat de bun)..T____T...i might cry on t day i separate with them..miss them already now..T.T

~ will also miss quarelling with my youngest brother..

~miss my mom's nagging..nag nag nag...

~miss my upside down sleep cycle

~miss going out with friends
# outing with mangay to shah alam
# movies every weekend with ex-highskoolians
# 6A3 gathering then went to wei khang's house..
# movie with cousiez: hannah montana: its a climmbbb~~i like this song


~ miss FB-ing t whole day

~ last but not least ..will miss t FREE me !!

bye bye Freedom..welcome Busy

~~peace out~~XD

tomorrow never dies~

first time i'm doing a tag. been tagged before but never bothered to do it. XP
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: PLAIN WATER.

2.Last phone call: HOUSE.

3.Last text message: LI YANG.

4.Last song you listened to: PET SOCIETY.

5.Last time you cried: FEW MINUTES AGO.XD>..< kidding!wahaha

6.What time did you wake up today: 9AM,THKS TO WEN PENG

7. What were you doing at midnight last night: SURFING .

8. Name something you CANNOT wait for: harry potter on july 16!

9. Last time you saw your Mother: NOW STILL SEEING.

10.What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: CONCERN MORE BOUT HIM N MADE HIM GO FOR BODY CHECK-up IN T FIRST PLACE

11. What are you listening to right now : I WILL BE by leona lewis

12. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: TOM N JERRY..XD XP

13. What's getting on your nerves right now: BODY TIRED MIND STILL ACTIVE

14. Most visited webpage: FB

15. Whats your real name: TAN HUAN HUAN

16. Nicknames: HANTU,BABI,HUANKUASADUA,HUANSQUARE,HAUNHAUN =.=38.
Relationship Status: SINGLE BUT NOT AVAILABLE..sorryXD

17. Zodiac sign: CANCER.

18. Male or female : female

19. Primary School?: Sri Lethia(STD1 &2) SRI ACMAR(till std 6)

20. Secondary School?: Sri Acmar

21. High school/college?: SMK Tinggi Klang

22. Hair colour: half black half brown..NATURAL DE due to malnutrition ;3

23. Long or short: SHORT..FOR NOW

24. Height: 163CM

25. Do you have a crush on someone?: HOPE SO

26: What do you like about yourself?: NOTHING

27. Piercings: ears

28. Tattoos: MAYBE!

29. Righty or lefty: rightie

FIRSTS :

30. First surgery: REMOVE TRIANGLE TEETH CONSIDERED?

31. First piercing: ears

32. First best friend: TUNG MAY JEAN..wonder she still remembers me?..XD

33. First sport you joined: CARRYING A MORE THAN 8.5 KG PUNYA BABY UP N DOWN T STAIRS CONSIDERED??

34. First vacation: ERR..4GOTTEN..OLDLIAO..HMM..

35. First pair of trainers: BIRTHDAY SUIT

36. Eating: air

37. Drinking: PLAIN WATER

38. I'm about to: READ DORAEMON COMIC BOOK(FOR T SECOND ROUND)..

39. Listening to: theme of love~final fantasy

40. Waiting on: my special someone~XD

YOUR FUTURE

41. Want kids?: OF COURSE..XD~

42. Get Married?: HMMMPH

43. Career?: BIOMEDICAL SCIENTIST,professor??XD

WHICH IS BETTER :

44. Lips or eyes: MY PANDA EYES..YEAH!!XD

45. Hugs or kisses: HUGS

46. Shorter or taller: taller

47. Older or Younger: HALF HALF

48. Romantic or spontaneous: both

49. Nice stomach or nice arms: both

50. Sensitive or loud: in between

51. Hook-up or relationship: relationship

52. Trouble maker or hesitant: hmmmph..erm...

HAVE YOU EVER :

53. Kissed a stranger: NEVER,UNLESS REALLY CUTE..BABY LA I MEAN!

54. Drank hard liquor: umm.SHANDY,champagne.counted as drank?

55. Lost glasses/contacts: NO

56. Sex on first date: NEVER!!!!!!!!

57. Broken someone's heart: YES, I AM CRUEL,,BUT THATS TAT

58. Been arrested:NO XD

59. Turned someone down: YES

60. Cried when someone died: SURE:'(

61. Fallen for a friend?: USED TO.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

61. Yourself: DEFINITELY

62. Miracles: I BELIEVE I CAN FLY,I BELIEVE I CAN SOAR T LAB!.AHAHAHA

63. Love at first sight: YEAH..*WINK..XD.

64. Heaven: ONE MORE PLACE FOR ME PLZ??XD

65. Santa Claus: HO!HO!HO!..

66. Kiss on the first date: I WILL SLAP HIM.

67.Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

68. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no

69. Did you sing today?: YES..IN WEN PENG'S CAR..XD

70. Ever cheated on somebody?: HMM..THERE IS ONE TIME, I LIED TO MY MOM, TELLING HER TAT ITS A SKOOL HOL ON TAT DAY BUT ITS ACT A NORMAL SKOOLING DAY..TAT TIME STILL NAIVE (hehe >;D)..STUPID ME, T SKOOL IS NEAR MY HOUSE, so my mum found out lo..wakakak..WILL NEVER LIE TO MY PRECIOUS MUM AGAIN..XD

71. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: to the time WHEN HE IS STILL HEALTHY, N TAT DAMN VIRUS DOESNT GET HIM YET

72. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: 2008.HMMM.NOTHING TO REGRET OF....

73.Are you afraid of falling in love?: NO

74. Posting this as 100 truths?: some truths were revealed...XD

People tagged by me : those who linked my blog in their blog! XPxoxo

♥ BIONAME : ♀[TAN HUAN HUAN]
AGE : 2O soon ;)D.O.B : 03.07.1989

♥ JUST TO SAY~always b yourself, t genuine you~ppl who think badly of t real you is not worth to be your friend..so why bother! rock on babe..XD

~peace out~

finally~~~at long last~~~O.O whew~

Thursday, June 18, 2009

double xi ling men

double t happiness , double t fun!
tats wat i hope in seventeen hours time..
hope we are "seventeen again"..yeah XD
lol..

in roughly seven hours later, my "sexy(XD) heng tai" kah foong is gonna get his result..
hence i hereby wish him luck n hope he might finally able to pursue his dreams..

secondly is in seventeen hours time, we are going to celebrate my beloved hamster's birthday .. although her birthday is 21st june.waka waka..
so i also hereby wish she can 'break egg' soon ^^

hope we[wp,jojo,vv,hh,jitjit,kk,ff,ww,n tt] have a blast of fun later~~have my palms together.. god bless^^


~~peace out~~V^^V

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

random~~

i cant sleep..Sleepless Nights~~

based on my own psychological research (XD), apparently those (lets name it B) who had a crush on someone (lets name it A) will read A's blog from head to toe no matter how long,boring n unrelated t blog is to B.

hence..(perasan a bit)..if u r reading EVERY SINGLE FRIGGIN DETAIL of my cheong hei blog,,this means u had a crush on me!!
wahahaha..just kidding.. however it is true to some ppl?

yours truthfully,insanely, crazily,
huan kuasa dua

~~peace out~~V^^V

p/s : waiting any moment for my mom to freak out due to t loud typing noise..hee hee..however..no more now~~

FEELING

just now i was "shocked by lightning twice"~~
not t exact lightning though~~

as a by-product of t lightning shock.this is wat i think~~.apparently girls look for rich guys (some of them)..are guys d same?
do they look for rich girls as well?
IT is obvious they look for pretty girls(right?) i dunno..but is wealth another criteria for them?
this makes me wonder due to certain comments my friend made indirectly ..

as for me..feeling is t most important..i am a very sensitive person(elaborate more on this later)..

just now..while chatting in msn with a particular friend..he sort of made me change a lil bit of my impression on him..i first thought he was a playboy back in form six cause he is very friendly towards every girl he met ..and to this fellow: so this is t answer when u ask me y i am scared of you,however am i scared of you??*confused*

few hours back..i had a "truthful conversation" with him.. its all about t truth..he told me interesting stuff (hehe) which makes me think NOW that he is indeed a str8forward guy of all t friends i met..however truth can be harsh at times..n due to my stubborn curiosity, i can barely sleep now..i know i very cheong hei but still i wanna remind him again in case he forgotten n if he is reading this~~

there it goes~~{i am not a sui pian de girl who will fall for every guy i met, n no matter how good looking or how good tat someone treat me, if i do not have t FEELING for him(or her-->impossible!wahaha), then he would not be able to pin me down} get it!!!!!>.<..

yeah..so i am sensitive n i hate ppl misunderstanding bout me..i hope everything is clear between U n Me ..even though this might not be a big deal for you..it is for me!as i wan my image cleaned..[emo-ing]=.=



i feel low bout myself recently n it has nothing to do with anybody~~i feel ugly inside n outside..i am a negative-thinker most of t time.. n i have never felt so low bout myself..perhaps it will dissolve someday~~

tats all for now..
remember friends, every heavy rain ends with a rainbow ~hence al your problems will eventually end up alright after al..this is how i console myself after every stupid negative thinking i made as i cant find anyone suitable to confide with..

~~peace out~~V^^V

iMpErFeCT

so t journey begins~~

before that, i wanna make things clear..
some ppl might be amazed by complete fluent plus ''flowery" english words used by others..but i am afraid i do not have a passion to do that coz i prefer adding some other languages into them making them pasar english sentences..so i hope you guys out there wouldn't mind..instead do enjoy t beauty o t "pasary" language^^

here am i in my mother's room..all asleep except me as usual~~it is often t friendzz who say good night to me n explore their dreamzz leaving me exploring my own dark solitary world..however i enjoyed it n thats t fun of it~~being in my own world~~just me~~

sometimes we just couldn't help having our own special time right~~XD
however i chosen it to be late at night making me a nocturnal panda-eyed girl~~
hence i shalt stop here n exit facebook..n..

sleep??nono..gonna watch UP in my laptop~~hee
yeah~~
may all my friends have a lovely dream~~ sweet night everyone ..XD

~~peace out~~V^^V

introduction

hi i came across this with t help of my friend kah foong..so thank you~~..
i have planned to write a blog since dunno when..but i am lazy..
then just now..my other friend asked me to read kah foong's blog(coz one or two of his posts, somehow got my name inside)kaka..so i read n then only i realised that yuan lai a lot ppl had expressed themselves(mostly) tru blogging..
hence i told myself that i mussen miss being a part of it rite ?? hehe..

so this is it..something bout me,me n ME!
hope i am not too lazy to type n torture my brain to string multiple words together..so to t ppl out there~ either u read it or leave it..its up to you..i am just here with a hope on expressing my feelings n disatisfaction once in a while. i hope to release my stress..AH! as i am a thinker of wu liao stuff..

i know u guys out there hate long chiong hei post..so do i..so/.....peace outXD

yours sincerely,
huan kuasa dua( this name is given by my ukm biomed friend~hamster yong XD in t friends for sale when he bought me as a 'pet' in facebook

yeah i am a facebook freak..so what?!! aggressive eh am i?yeah..get used to it then waka waka
xPP

~peace out~V^^V