Br'(00)'D

*Feeling indifferent..

No motives in life..

Nothing that interests her in life..

Why is she feeling like there is suddenly nothing in life that she wanna pursue, no hopes, passion for nothing, her just feeling indifferent,,

Sometimes she just feels very tired, physically, mentally, emotionally..no one can understand that, and no one to share them with, even if shared, ignorant feedbacks like a-u-just-think-too-much or stay-positive will be given..(whats the point, no one will understand)

HAd a crazy bizarre thought, wants to be hospitalised..lying on the bed, with smell of antiseptics in the hospital environment, just being there without being acknowledged by doctors and nurse, no injection, no treatment, just wanna lie down there like a shell without a soul..Sometimes just wish she can faint or have a syncope all of a sudden, perhaps never wanting to wake up anymore, but how will it feels like after not being able to wake up anymore?~~

When will the world ends.*

~~~Perhaps one day..ONE DAY.. the NEW me shalt look back at this post, and laugh..laughing at how stupid i can be at 'that' moment i am writing this post..I shall laugh at how insensitive i am for not being able to discover the wonders of life i can discover earlier, and the need to brood over the contents of this post shalt not be needed anymore..one day but not today 1/12/2011 =)

I know i will~Someday~~~(i)(i)

ImperfecT FelicitY

HAVE you ever been caught up in a situation that is as similar as:

#1 You are at the top of a cliff, and there u met a huge bear..be it u face the bear and got eaten by it, or u jump down the cliff only to face and be eaten by a sea of sharks. Whatever decision u made, u will face death either way..So what will you choose?

#2 Ur body had an organ failure..leaving it in ur body will only deteriorate ur health, but removing it from ur body, ur body cant live any longer as well..and even if ur organ is replaced with an artificial one, ...it will never ever be the same, will it?..Will you choose to keep it or remove it? when either way hurts you the same way...

#3 I once saw an acquantaince's status saying that a bird and a fish were in love, but how do they be able to live together? Or perhaps a tiger who is in love with a deer? well, Dont u dare say i think too much, cause these things do happen!

All in all, either way, whatever way! u chose, u end up hurting urself in the end..Have YOU been in this kind of situation?~~~


Life is like seeking reality in ones dream,

hoping the reality in the dream will never fade away...

trying to realize a dream in ones realm of reality,

only to find oneself back in a dream

~I have died everyday

Waiting for you~

~Darling, don't be afraid,

I have loved you for a thousand years,

I will love you for a thousand more~

~<>~

She said..

God gave me a chance, and i didn't use it well.

How sad can it be~
How hurt more can it be~


~~No matter how hard u've tried, there's nothing but holes inside~~

Shall i just stand under the rain, and let the raindrops wash away my dread,
or shall i just stand against the wind, to let all my regrets be blown away,

Shall i just sink deep down the sea, to let the waves flush away my misery,

or shall i just stand under the hot sun, to let the blazing rays melt away my worries~

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Sometimes ,the things that u want most in your life at the moment...

YOU..JUST ..CANT...GET..IT...!
fuck!

however...as frustrated as i might be..and after 22 years(kononnya act wise) of living through big and small waves, it suddenly struck me like a lightning that,

mm, why not think of the POSITIVE saiiddeee~~(i am not trying to be those that normally pretend-to-be-optimistic-but-deep-down-in-their-heart-they-r-fuckin-not-they-r-still-full-of-grudges type of being) but its TRUE!

TRY to think this way, and i find it awesomely working

maybe GOD doesnt want u to have what u want to have now, because God has reserved something BETTER for you, as long as u r patient enough to strive for it=)

so this PATIENCE IS GOLDEN phrase is not lame n boring for nothing huh? LOLMAO

Good Night peeps=) if there's any , muaha muaha!

pERFECTO nigtmarO

IT always seems as if it just happened yesterday,
It always seems real when it was just a dream,
It always seems eternal when it knows it will end,

The heart wants to say hello to goodbye, yet the mind doesnt want to say farewell to goodbye,

Or is it the mind that wants to say farewell to goodbye, but the heart doesnt want to say hello to goodbye.

Keep telling myself that its not worth it,

i already know i dont deserve it,

But if its from you, i dont mind hurting,

This is a perfect nightmare,

So when will i wake up and scream, NO WAY~

She says..

Summer after high school when we first met
We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
Like we had a clue
Never planned that one day
I'd be losing you

In another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
It's time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse

But in another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]
The one that got away


All this money can't buy me a time machine (Nooooo)
Can't replace you with a million rings (Nooooo)
I shoulda told you what you meant to me (Woooooow)
'Cause now I pay the price

In another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

<3

Lost for words

i usually have a lot in mind..
have a lot to say..

have a lot to share..

but when i started typing, i started to feel lost for words..

do you feel the same as me? =)