when i was studying IMMUNOLOGY..

my body suddenly calls for toilet business..
so i went to the toilet,
but before that i on the radio and tune into Fly FM..
then something that makes me very happy just like how music used to make me very happy and excited in the olden times happen=]

the song "Kuch Kuch Hota Hai" was playing on d radio!! XDD
i love this movie and of course their theme song❤

then i start searching youtube for this song but,"This video contains content from Sony Music Entertainment, who has blocked it in your country on copyright grounds." kept appearing..=.=

nevermind..as i searched other music videos for this movie, the touched feeling i used to have few years ago when watching this movie starts to re-ignite..its a very nice beautiful bollywood movie. I love watching Bollywood movies during schoolin time esp those (act not ESP but ONLY haha!) with handsome actors and pretty actress..XDD

the story for this movie goes like this:

A guy has a close fren who is a girl(A) who happens to like him very much, most prob will give away her life for him..but sadly this guy likes another girl(B) and in the end they got married..A was very heartbroken but moved on anyway(p/s: guys isn't everything!!>D blek!!)
too bad, B passed away due to sickness but they had a daughter lo..,.

then their daughter happen to go for a school camp where A happens to be the teacher for the camp, then i forgot how the guy happen to be in the camp also, then somehow the guy fall in love with A then touchingly they be together and this family lives happily ever after..this movie is based on a story of true love..very sweet indeed the storyline..aikss!! to get wat i mean, just find that movie and watch it aite!!XD
guarenteed u will be touched!

alright here's another thought..i used to think that this movie is very touching and sweet and romantic..BUT NOW ..come to think of it,** this guy ..hurt A damn hard when he marry another girl, i understand that he doesnt know her feeling for him and he just treat her as a good friend in the first place..but still the girl is hurt..but nevermind ..ignore this~..SOOO,THEN the guy's wife passed away , IF THE GUY love his wife a lot, shouldn't he been deciding that he would not re-marry or LIKE OTHER GIRL and be ALONE in the memory of his beloved dead wife forever? i start to wonder now, how can he fall for his old fren just in a blink of an eye? why couldn't he had fallen in love with her last time when hey were close frens only to realise that he had feelings for her recently??
was it because he was just too lonely after his wife passed away ??FAT CHANCE i hope//



actually i have this thought when i saw a comment from someone on one of the movie's videoclip on youtube which sounds like this:"god rahul's such an arrogant idiot.isn't he?he breaks her heart so badly,chooses someone else over her,marriesher,has a baby with her n when she's dead he comes back to anjali without even realising n apologising for all the hurt he gave her and even in this scene he's so smug n conceited about himself.sheesh." FYI: the guy is Rahul and A is Anjali..and their daughter is named Anjali too because her mother happen to want to name her with the name of Rahul's best friend who is A..blaaa bla

however its just a movie, there is no need to think too much..haha..just go with the flow with the movie and feel wat the movie wan us to feel which is true and touching love..(though its love with 2 different ppl, though cynical but thats that right?/)
haha ok enough of the sarcastic and narcisstic thoughts..
ALL in ALL its still a very good movie and a good storyline, interesting story bout love, friendship and family..worth watching..and i prefer to preserve the " TOUCHING, ROMANTIC AND SWEET" perception i had for this movie few years back and i shall ignore the negative thoughts** i have bout this movie just now..


we shall think postive la dei..its very easy to call people to stop thinking too much, or everyime a friend consult u, 110 %% u will definitely tell ur fren" hey don think too much la" BUT do u realise that its very EASY TO FORM A THOUGHT, but it is very very HARD to VANISH THE THOUGHTS?? unless u experience some memory loss!
its really very hard to stop thinking much esp for hard thinkers like me..i will try my best, but u just don expect me to stop thinking bout everything i have thought before in a blink of time..because ITS difficult..but i will try my best though its hard, i ..WILL..TRYYY..MYY BESTTTTT!!! gambate ME is ME and nothing can beat ME ..not even you!!
alright, i am getting on the crazy side..sooo











BYE.*back to immuno XD

look look who's here,

me writing a new post in my long deserted blog..
i have a thousand words swarming in my mind but i am lost for words to write it here,
funny how people might look happy from the outside, but sad and uncontented in the inside,
funny how turtle and tortoise is hard in the outside but soft in the inside,
funny how dog that don bark often, bites more,
well, thats life..

i am supposed to be racing with time to complete my reading on Immunology notes in which i have a final exam next tuesday..
when i am trying my effin best to concentrate and memorise the tumour immunity and effector mechanism, other stuff kept intercepting my mind, it must be my amydala..
in case u wonder wats amygdala, well thats a part of ur brain which instills u to think of negative stuff..

i cant stop thinking bout it! and i have no one to share with..maybe i have, but nowadays i find it hard to trust anyone...i thought of telling my babi gang, but i dunno how to start and i dunno who to tell first..AND IF i start telling this to people, i know this will haunt me forever.
i thought of telling my close uni frens ..but i realised that i never wanna let them know my problems..perhaps maybe i want dignity, or maybe i feel that there is no need for sharing my worriness or perhaps my problems..its not important after all.

maybe i am used to keeping it in my heart,
thiking that if i say it out,
i am exposed, or maybe i will be vulnerable
just like a body depriving of an immune system..

but sooner or later, if i keep on thinking of this non stop, i might die..
seriously,
committing suicide? perhaps not worth it la..plus its pain and a stupide act..but wat if i did?? Everything has a threshold anyway, if its over the threshold, ANYTHING could happen right..

worst comes to worst, i probably might just have a mental breakdown and live happily in Tanjung Rambutan..

>>aint it better?maybe? though surrounded by those pitiful mental peoples(those who might even turn up violent O.O) but maybe that will be the place where i can be free..FREE of these problems and suffering thoughts i have been having right now..maybe thats the third space i have been wanting..

EITHER way, anything that can free me of those thoughts, i am willing to do~
its nobody's fault..its my fault. to have such thoughts bothering me ALL..Most..of the time..some people reading this might prob thought "aiya this girl think too much again" but those who think lidat never understand that these thoughts are actually killing me and forbidding me from having the peaceful and happy life i wanted.
i mean who never wants a happy life?

BYE.

A GIRL who cares about the past