oMG

its only a matter of time before i..

>get thrown with eggs(fresh or rotten)
>slip in the middle of the road
>get bombarded in every direction
>annoying "i Knew It" being echoed 24/7
>zzzzzzzzzz
>entomology
>facing the four walled room
>countdowning my freedom
>zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz in few minutes


MAYBE U wouldnt know wat i am writing now..
actually i don have any idea wat i am writing now as well..lol

i don feel like writing bout wat is happening in every seconds of me life
maybe because i am lazy of stringing the words together or perhaps i am just lost for words..or maybe it wasnt that interesting after all..lol

hmmmm..peace ba everybody >.^v~BYE!

the original me

decided to maintain d original me..
as long as i am happy and comfortable with who i am, the original me is enough
=]
sooo..
>>to those who cant stand the craziness i emit, sorry la.i apologize.i cant do anything bout it..at most just stay away from me lo..peace^^


>>to those who enjoy crazying around with me(u know who u are, my pandi sistersss n brothersss..XDDD)..we should treasure these moments as good things are hard to come yea..^^..last but not least, DO EXPECT MORE FROM ME^^ NGEK NGEK..ni men bu neng tao pi de(especially josephine ng wei liing..kaka>D)..(haha pai se la, i dunno how to write chinese so i just write the *han yu pin ying* but some also inaccurate de..u all understand n get the meaning can d la..hehehe^^)

gosh..i am really challenging my panda eyes..

why am i not asleep yet..i dunno..i am physically tired but my mind is still running actively, like waters in d waterfall?? (ehem metafora??XD)
haha
i am somehow expecting something even though i dunno wat is that i am waiting for..
i somehow expect something big will happen n change my life again..
yes..again..since few years back something changed my life~
however this time ..it is not due to d same factor, no one will be dying or anything(touchwood)XDD

hmm.wat else to say..thousand stuff or maybe zillion stuff seem to be running in my mind, but i somehow cant string them into sentences to be written here..
as its already 2:44 am now, permit me to write the contents of my mind in point form(lazy to type also actually haha)

>mosquito
>relationship(friends family etc)
>choice
>decision(i suspect i am developing deciodophobia??=.=)
>far far away
>status
>happiness
>kids
>nephew
>study
>randomness
>health
>indulgence
>facebook (IT)
>reminisce
>redface
>currently listening to *jiu yao xing fu le* this song reminds me of IT
>peeling my lips(luckily hiany butler is not here to nag me~)
>dignity
>impression
>am i doing or thinking d right thing?

u probably will not understand this,
or maybe wondering whther i am in the correct state of mind..
but this is wat i am thinking now..at times, i myself cant figure out wat i am thinking..i just hope i can have a simple piece of mind..perhaps i shall meditate?XD

gotta stop here..dunno wat to say d/..
better go sleep..
or else gonna face d librarians late with shocking panda eyes@.@

sweet dreams to those sleeping^^
peaceV^^V--->baichilisation?XD

all's well will end well=]

I wanna add something to my previous post which might seems optimistic but it will be true as long as we KEEP faith in ourselves=]

no matter wat L.O.V.E situation we are in, we will certainly had our worries..
BUT ..as long as we found our TRUE LOVE, n think " yeah he(or she) is definitely d ONE"..then, who cares,in FACT who GIVES A DAMN, on whether he is still single throughout his life, or he had been dumped, or he dumped his gf...

>>>because what matters t most is ..
t "wall" between u n him,
is broken by..
TRUE LOVE
=]

this is one of t lessons in life i think we esp youngsters should ponder upon,

well..
i am just sharing wat's in my mind..
as
SHARING IS CARING.XD

hence..
have faith
keep FAITH
n
most important of all,
take ur time, to find ur one n only true love
as..

>.^~d night is still young~
CHEERS FOR LOVE!=D

tiring LOVE

LETS say, at t age of 21-25, u were single..
t guy(or gal*) same age as u, n u think he fulfills ur "dream guy criteria"(or dream girl* for guys), u might wanna start a relationship with him, but there is only one thing bothering u: he HAD NEVER BEEN INVOLVED IN A RELATIONSHIP BEFORE, so u will think, if he is such a good guy, why still single n never had a gf b4 till now??at this age summore?? is it possible tat there is something ABNORMAL bout him? u will start to worry then~ THIS IS LOVE STRESS#1

LOVE STRESS#2 lets say again, at t same age , n u were single..
u met a guy(*) n u are about to date him, but there is one thing that worries you: he HAD BEEN DUMPED BY HIS GF(s)in most of his relationships..u will start to think..is it because he is not a good guy, or such a pain in t ass, or is it because he is a two-timer, tats y his gf left him? u might think he is unwanted cause he had been dumped before n u might just be "recycling" him..(no offence ya for those who feels offended)this is just an example..u will start to worry then~

OR lets say again, UNDER D SAME CONDITION, u met a guy, n this guy just dumped his gf..but his gf was reluctant to break ..
u both were goin out together after some time, u might feel valued because he is t one who don wan his old relationship, but his gf don wanna let go but still he is determined to break up, and after some time, he met you n liked you..(meaning he sort of choose u over his ex now) , but then u will start to worry (AGAIN) ..WORRY WHETHER he is a casanova, play boy, will he do t same thing to you..n worst of all, his gf might have come out with all possible scary unpredictable tactics just to get him back..<

> so in t end ,,u will start to worry ~ THIS IS LOVE STRESS#3

in conclusion, no matter wat situation it is, u will always have to WORRY bout LOVE..
love is TIRING
but tats t sacrifice we have to do if we want to attain happiness from love, rite?..

~peace in love, peace in life!~

its all kudou shinichi's fault

PART 1
t reason
i am
going to
have
~panda eyes again
~liver damage
~faster aging
~more wrinkles at t side of my eyes
~deafening ears

is

because

-----> i am downloading detective conan t disclosed case=.=

PART 2
i have deleted everything n plan to forget everything bout xxxx
i think too much
too much expectation
hopes for something to happen
it wont~
dream on will u~
i hope everthing will end up well
i hope i have a temporary amnesia~XD
all's well will end well..yeah
i am used to it, all those obstacles i had been able to overcome!>.

PART 3
u know wat annoys me now, the baby cries nonstop, dunno how many zillion times i went to "dodoi" him>.<
nvm, he is my precious(nephew..!!) after all~ shud be patient..hmmm

good !! download is completed..now i can zzzz..=.=

good night
peace out

p/s: i was wondering why most of my guy frenZZ so gilakan girls generation..=.="..

fishes in t sea~~~

PPL say even if u got hurt n lost ur love, don worry, there is still " a lot of fishes in the sea"..

this phrase is t reason we move on after losing our other half, with t hope of finding another "fish"..so wat if we lose t special him or her, there is still a lot of choices out there~~

OR

if we happen to love that special someone SECRETLY for years n years n yearsssss, only to be disappointed n left with a false hope n a broken heart, don worry, there is still "a lot fishes in the sea", just get over that special him or her, as there is still plenty of choices out there~~{this time i think of a song: Somewhere Out There by Linda Ronstadt & James Ingram}

HOWEVER, it takes a matter of time for me to realise t pain truth behind this so called optimistic phrase..

our feelings are hurt by our old love or crush, hence with that phrase in our mind, we are set to find another love >>oh!this one is more handsome/prettier n rich,guess i have made at right choice this time..wee< there is actually still a lot i can choose de!bla bla bla<<.....only to end up being hurt again agAIN n AGAIN by our other so-called love..

*sigh*
thats L.I.F.E~~n we human are meant to be t slave of L.O.V.E..~~~yet we are willing to...

rebirth~

finally i am able to gain access to my lonely blog here, a lot bitter things not forgetting some sweet crazy moments had happened throughout t period from t last blog i posted here till now,..

i have learnt that we should appreciate friends that care for us n don give a damn on those that doesnt value our friendship,..hell yeah!

well this exam period is (well in my opinion) t most torturing period in my entire exam life...T.T...so many to study, many difficult chim chim de names and terms to remember(hmmm so far i manage to remember helicobacter pylori, iodamoeba butschlii, mycobacterium tuberculosis.<<.cheh show off kononnya wahahah!!>>)...n u know,..i like to go home mainly because i wanna meet my two nephews(big C n small c)..i don like to be stuck in setapak, t current place i am living in kl during my (hell)semester period,,sad to say ..i hate setapak!!!!!!!!!!!

but i have no choice but to try my best to stay positive n live life t fullest..sniff sniff**...but dunno why this time due to certain circumstances, i met some problem in finding transport back n forth KL..i have never felt tat tense n stress b4.T.T..but thank god in t end i manage to find..n from this, i learnt of who are t good ones who will be there for thou when u need them n also.. sad to say,, those helpless selfish ones(well maybe they have their own difficullties)..so i hereby wanna thank those who have help n support me throughout my self-assumed difficult moments..really appreciate ur effort, n u know who u r(>.^)..xoxo

overall i can just say that all the obstacles, disappointment, pain n misery(yet not all t time la) that i experienced throughout this period had made me a STRONGER person n nothing will stop me from achieving my dream(s)..hell yeah!!>.,< aza aza fighting!!

i shalt end this post by two wordss
~Good Night~

wahahaha..zzzzzz..(but i am not in t sleeping mood yet)