Some people's attitude are just so diverse or what I can say:weird. Sometimes I just don't understand some ppl's attitude and yet I cannot tell them off face to face. I do not understand why they could have said things to hurt people, said things without going through their brain(if still functioning) and without considering other people's feelings. Now, I have even encountered ppl who mentioned things I hate just because they enjoyed seeing me get pissed off! Why?? And that fellow so happens to be someone close to me.

Is it very enjoyable to see someone you care of gets pissed off? Even if it's meant to be a joke, but as young adults, we should already have developed the ability to differentiate between a bad and a good joke. As in what can be said and what NOT.

On that day, I am amazed that my usually low EQ increased a little, I did not show the expression that is expected even though deep down I felt annoyed, disturbed, pissed off(oh yes I am, very), and disappointed on why this someone that I respected, love and care of could have said something like that just to hurt me , and to watch me pissed off??! Again, WHY? I don't understand.

I did not give the expression someone expected though I feel the very big urge to press the NEXT tab on the screen. I didn't, and I acted normal and calm. The calmness however does not mean that I am ok with everything that is being said during that particular moment, I just tolerated with everything that happened because that someone is someone I care of, whereas that someone I hate whom is being mentioned is someone the one who mention, care of.. Hence I don't wanna hurt anyone.( I don't mind hurting ppl I hate though, call me bad I don't care) But I mind hurting people I CARE. I don't understand why some people don't mind hurting ppl they care.

Alright, even if you didnt consider my feelings, or not aware of it, then let's switch to that someone you mentioned whom I hate but whom you care very much. Then do u enjoy pushing that fellow to someone whom you already know despise very much ? For what? Just because you wanna see how that fellow makes someone pissed off, makes that someone hates that fellow even more, only will you be satisfied? Do you enjoy letting that fellow u care of being hated even more?

This is not the first time. I did not say or express anything on that time, I will also not confront you regarding this matter because I don't wanna keep saying and expressing that I hate someone who is very close to you because that will only make you unhappy. That is why I tolerated and remained calm on that time, rather not showing my hatred and uneasiness when you purposely mention that fellow to me , because I don't wanna make you unhappy. And yet you manipulated and take advantage of my patience by never failing to mention that whenever we meet. And from time to time, I just choose to ignore what u are trying to do:which is to make me pissed off?! Plus I already don't wanna keep reminding myself that I hated that fellow in front of you because that will just make everyone unhappy, no?? Can't u just gimme a break and let the fact that I hate that fellow resides silently in everyone's mind who know this will do? Why does these annoying things have to be said out by me or you everytime we meet? This is what I have been trying to avoid and that is why I kept quiet or ignored this everytime you choose to mention it .


I really hope it won't happen again. Because I will never do the same thing to you. And I didnt confront you on this matter because I care for you and respected you and wish that you can realize this for yourself.